Chapter 3 - So close

We're so close
to reaching that famous happy end
and almost believing this was not pretend
let's go on dreaming for we know we are
So close..
and still so far..

Quoted it from the song 'so close' by Jon McLaughin..itz a nice song by the way..well it is sort true in many ways that we are so close and yet so far..in my case atleast..in this year 2008 i actually do not see myself involving in a relationship after having a bad break up the year before..and i must say..this must be the best thing that happen to me the whole year round..though we celebrate new year thousand of miles apart but like the lyrics says 'let's go on dreaming for we know we are..so close and still so far'..far apart we might be but emotionally we're together,connected under one sky..
Cheesy?perhaps..but itz true =)

On a brigther note..
had a great time last night out with friends watching The Beverlly Hills Chi hua hua and having supper..eventhough i have a slight fever..imagine a group of 'macho' guys watching it..lol..itz actually not bad..and i got a list of names if i happen to have a dog in the future..fifi,foofoo,pookie,squirt,papi...list goes on..lol..

2009 is just around the corner..
my own personal prediction for year 2009 :

• i'll be rich
• i'll finally get the hairstyle i want
• i'll have the best time in college
• Me and my girl will go strong for another year=)
• Liverpool winning the EPL
• due to the fact above, Joe Jin will be buying me a set of mcd(or something else..)

and the list goes on..dont wanna bore you out with my predictions..and where is the fun in that,knowing the what will happen in the future?lol..
so..

HAPPY NEW YEAR!!!!!!!!
HAVE A GREAT 2009!!!

til the next chapter..
chaozzzzzzz!!

Chapter 2

Itz been 3 days..but it felt like 3 weeks..
it is gonna be a long month ahead of me..but thank goodness i found a job to keep my mind occupied..yeap..i got a job, or sort of..itz 90% still not confirmed but most probably i'll get it =)..

Im gonna work at Haagen Daz in Queensbay..haha..gonna be close to all the expensive ice cream..so can say itz like a good choice?lol..surely itz much better than the Hush Puppies in Queensbay..sucky boss..

well i broke the news to my parents and they seem happy bout it that im gonna work..well im glad myself too..one i can help ease the burden of my parents, second and the main objective why im actually working is to keep myself from sulking at home..so it's sort of a good deal for me, don't you think?

yea the biggest prob i could face is juggling time between work and my studies..but i guess i could cope with that..i have to..i need cash and a place that i wont sulk the day off..

Chinese New year is just like a month away..need to buy a couple of new clothes..this year wun be spending so much on new years clothes due to the credit crunch..so only a max of two shirts im gonna buy!..so i need a fashion guru to go with me..and who else but my dear goose, Rachel Yong Sue Jenn (dont say i didnt mention your name here=p)

so anyway i told my mum that im gonna buy some clothes..and it totally went astray from the topic..

Me :mum,gonna go out with rachel to buy some new year clothes...
Mum :harh..gf gone a few days go n find another girlfriend d??
Me :No..of course not..we're just very close friends tht is all..
Me : so i go out with her to buy my clothes k??
Mum :is she cyen's gf?
Me : 0.0 no..why u say so??
Mum :no ler..the other night 3 of u went out so...
Me :no la..go out only merr...
Mum :Why isnt she ur gf?she dont want you issit?
Me :*smacks head* =.=

okay might be lame but i find tht a lil funny myself..before this i even thought of talking to my mum bout all the sulky feelings i've been feeling..but after this..no way...

so went ahead with the plan of shopping for new year clothes with rac..end up buying a couple of shirts at half price..wad a catch..guess itz beneficial coming out to shop with girls..lol..thanks rachel for accompanying me..

well..i've actually been feeling better..though the wait is long and hard..but im not sulking that much anymore like i used to..i have been trying to fill myself up with things to do..like finish up the New Moon and playing FM the whole day..i mean it does help the mood you know..im missing my baby girl like mad..but im not feeling any sulkiness or the feeling of emoness..just missing her every second..full stop..and im glad im feeling this way and i really hope it will last...i just wish tht the day she step foot on the island will be soon..

well i guess thts it for now..
till the next chapter..
chaozzzzz!!!

Chapter 1

I've been actually dreading for this day to come seriously..i know i know Christmas is the time for joy and happy moments..yea i agree..but this year i shall skip the joy and happy moments..

First thing i heard on Christmas morning is the squealing of a puppy..perhaps it got knocked by a car..it was squealing in the middle of the road for almost 10 minutes..thank goodness for an old couple who picked the puppy up and put it at the sidewalk..but that is all they do..

an eerie silent suddenly took over the whole place after the puppy gave a last sound of squeal..the usual sound of the bird chirpping or wind gushing by werent there..just an eerie silent..i thought to myself..
"how great..what a way to start Christmas"

Why i dread for this day, you may ask?
My baby is leaving for a month plus to Taiwan..

I wasnt exactly proud of myself for the past few weeks building up to this day..i was sort of being very..controlling and pushy and of course a big fat jerk..perhaps it is the fact that she might be leaving again a few days after she touched down in Penang on Feb..or perhaps im just very controlling and pushy and a big fat jerk..i seriously i do not hope that i am that kind of person..

I reached the airport after having my late breakfast..while i was driving there i guess i have been doing alot of thinking because the journey to the airport seemed so short..itz like my subconscious mind took over me and i've become sort of like an autopilot while my thoughts flew to some other land..

I walked into the airport, taking a small step each time i walk..wishing and hoping that i wont bid goodbye so soon yet..

When I finally reached her,she was in her organization clothes..we couldnt even really have a time to talk at first coz she was busy with something let alone a hug..but i did get a peck from her secretly as she is under a strict rule i guess where there is no intimate moments allowed when she is wearing her..uniform..

I didnt know wad took over me that very moment when i saw my baby so excited..i was sort of let down by it..because i thought she wasnt excited to go to this trip..so i was sort of being a jerk when she talked to me..thank goodness..i realised it earlier before things got out of hand..see,i told you im a big fat jerk sometimes right?

the time to part ways have come..the biggest regret for the day is i couldnt give her a goodbye hug or something..as she walked into the check point to the plane..i received a forwarded message bout Christmas..about how is it that is not all about the taking but giving..

well, this Christmas, i sort of gave away a huge chunk of my heart..coz my baby took it with her when she board the plane..

After watching her board the plane i went to Cyen's place just to hang out..just wanna get my mind of it..we hanged around till late evening with jjin and my two lil bros and not to forget cyen's big crazy bro..lol..

well i guess that's it for now..
till the next chapter..
chaozzzzzzz!!

P.S:
Baby im sorry for what i've been lately..
if you're readin this im sorry k..
and i miss u every moment
of the day..

Not even a word of sorry

*click*

my whole laptop shuts down with everything still on..things being downloaded and etc..
guess wad he said?

sorry?

not a chance..

know wad he said?i'll tell you wad he said..

"how can i know?you didnt tell me"

right..my laptop charger is black in colour and your wire is a freaking SILVER colour..how can u not differentiate that??and to say that i didnt tell you..how can i tell u when u suddenly come from behind and just switch off the plug?i have spidey senses izzit?

look..im not mad coz i've lost wad i did the whole morning but im mad coz u did not even bother to mutter a word of SORRY but instead u can say two hurtful sentences..call me sensitive but thts wad i am..

have you ever said sorry?pfft..not tht i remember..
guess wad?you just made my day..

P.s: thought i was luckier..
but i guess im not much different compare to u..

Im Back To Blogging..with a much shorter hair

Itz been like wad?a week since i last blogged?but it sure feels like itz been ages..there's just so much to update in this one week and im in a midst of where to start..

alritey..letz start with..

11th of Dec..
minus the emo blog i posted before this..it was actually one of our dear friend Teh Wen Ping's birthday..yea so we went to celebrate his birthday at a bbq steamboat restaurant with the gang..honestly speaking..i did not know tht it was his birthday so im really really sorry Wen Ping (if u're reading this)..yea back to the topic..i was the first to arrive and i booked the place..while waiting i saw a group of men in their 50s or 60s..they were bbq and just chatting away happily..there were actually 8 of them..few mins later they left and coincidently my friends came..and total us up together?it's 8 of us..i thought to myself.."can we be just like them in 40 years time?" man i sure hope we do..though the chances are slim but..i have a good feeling about it..=)


12th of Dec
Well tonight is the night me and me love of my life been waiting for..PROM..well not exactly prom but itz sort of like prom..it was actually my girl's Alumni Night..it was quite a rocky start to the day..had few problems but with her around me..however big the problem is,in the end it'll be solved..perhaps tht is why i just cnt live beside u baby!XP well..i'll just post some photos up..

Couplessss

Im glad we can take this photo..erm..im not so glad i took this photo XD
oh well..she really has a nice voice =)


Us..

Our Prom..

I might be considered as crashing a prom..but it doesnt matter to me as long as my girl is by my side..not trying to get all musheee but like i've said before..if she's around..ntg seems to matter that much anymore..we're the prom virgins so this is our first prom..and dancing together at the end of the prom is just the icing on the cake on a wonderful evening..

13th of Dec

The guys are planning to cook the underground chicken again..and this time we bought two..went to chong yen's house to wash the chicken..and first time i was the chicken....
letz just say itz not a really pleasant experience..
BUTTT..
mine is just the appetizer..someone had to penetrate the chicken with sausages and balls and cheese something something sauce..lol..pics available at Chongyen's blog..hehe..it was nice..eat and chat and do some crazy stunts till 12 something..another great day out with friends..hehe..

Well..i guess tht is all i can type for now..need to sleep..i have socio exam tomolo..and itz freaking 2.30am now..didnt really studied..great...anywayyyzzzz...one tree hill really rocks man..should go watch...!!lol..

till the next post..chaozzzzz~~

sometimes things may not be great..
or things may seem not right at place..
but bear this in mind..
im loving every moment of it..
because every moment of it is spent with you..
whether itz for good or for worse..
and that is all that matters to me..being together with you..

Why are not thinkin bout yourself and also the people around you..instead u're thinkin of that person at a distant place..

why do u risk our welfare just to provide tht sum of money for that person every month although you know now times are hard..but i still do not understand..

is that person alone so important compare to us?

you told me itz emergency and please do not let me find out itz otherwise..
please do not let me find out that you're doing it out of guilt..

i know you love us but sending that sum of money away on the pretext its an emergency without any proof is just not good enough reason for me...

u might be telling the truth..but the jury's verdict is almost certain that you are not..
im just hoping that the jury is wrong bout you..

I Won't Disagree by Kate Voegele

fell in love with this song immediately...so try listening to it=)

1 3fel onl3ly..........

some tricky stuff for u to solve

When i thought things couldnt get any worse it did..

when i thought we were free to be...

when i thought dictatorship was a distant thing..

when i thought being misjudged is just a petty thing..

when i thought good things will last longer..

when i thought i could be in for a good time..

when i thought i was right bout stuff..

I WAS WRONG!

It's Over by Jesse Mccartney

been awhile since i posted up a video..this is nice..should listen to it!

To My Beloved Girl..

..Happy Birthday!!

okay okay..i know this post is late by a couple of days..but then again itz better late than never rite?u'll forgive me right baby =D

Anyways..i planned to celebrate with the birthday girl the whole day..so went there like in the afternoon..and guess wad?i drove WAJA!woohooo!yea..sort of my first time driving Waja out of penang and my second time driving it..lol..

So went to BM to find me girl and we head to Jusco in BM to eat Japanese Ramen..and i must be living in some other world..i didnt know that Ramen looks like Maggie Mee 0.0 but obviously it taste better than maggie mee lerr..hahah..

Ironically i ordered rice in a ramen's shop =.=

itz damn worth it somemore..we were really full..overloaded..can barely walk...BUT..some temptations are just so hard to resist..we end up whistling our way to...

Yeap..tht's B.A.D
Big Apple Donuts...
Bad for full stomach...lol

My personal fav..peanut butter thingy..hahathis is one of babystringray's fav..plain donut =.= haha


If this crazy eating spree isnt enough..we went straight to starbucks for some ice blended chocolate chip..lol..There u goo..birthday girl enjoyin her drink..hehe..

so after the crazy eating spree we went to pacific with some extra weight on..haha...

pacific is more like Penang's version of Bukit Jambul cum Prangin Mall..lotz of cheap stuff to buy and most importantly..lotz of close shops and also itz dirty..lol..so just jalan jalan there then after that went back to penang..

Went straight to BBQ steamboat restaurant in Nagore Road to meet up with the guys..didnt eat there..was full..really full coz laugh too much d..hahah..

so i guess tht is all for this post..there is still a continuation for this blog..lol..till then..

HAPPY 18TH BIRTHDAY NG SHINRUI!!

Love Ya always and forever~~

I stole this from Easaw due to boredom..

Dear (the last person who left a comment on your blog).

I don't really know how to tell you this, but ___1___.I think I realized it when ___2______3___ and I saw you ___4___ ___5___. I'm sure you're ___6___ enough to understand ___7___. I'm returning ___8___ to you, but I'll keep ___9___ as a memory. You should also know that I ___10___ ___11___.___12___.



Loves;-Your name-

P/S: You are so lifeless, ___13___, -The name of the person that tagged you-.



1. What's the color of your shirt?

Blue - Our romance is over

Red - Our affair is over

White - I'll join the monastery

Black - I dislike you

Green - Our horoscope doesn't match

Grey - You're a pervert

Yellow - I'm selling myself

Pink - Your nostrils are insulting

Brown - The mafia wants you

No shirt - You're a loser

Other - I'm in love with your sister



2.Which is your birth month?

January - That night

February - Last year

March - When your dwarf bit me

April - When I tripped on sesame seeds

May - First of May

June - When you put cuffs on me

July - When I threw up

August - When I saw the shrunken head

September - When we skinny dipped

October - When I quoted Santa

November - When your dog ran amok

December - When I changed tennis shoes



3. Which food do you prefer?

Tacos - In your apartment

Pizza - In your camping car

Pasta - Outside of Chicago

Hamburgers - Under the bus

Salad - As you ate enchilada

Chicken - In your closet

Kebab - With Paris Hilton

Fish - In women's clothing

Sandwiches - At the Hare Krishna graduation

Lasagna - At the mental hospital

Hot dog - Under a state of trance

None of the above - With George Bush and his wife



4. What's the color of your socks?

Yellow - Hit on

Red - Insult

Black - Ignore

Blue - Knock out

Purple - Pour syrup on

White - Carve your initials into

Grey - Pull the clothes off

Brown - Put leeches on

Orange - Castrate

Pink - Pull the toupee off

Barefoot - Sit on

Other - Drive out



5. What's the color of your underwear?

Black - My best friend

White - My father

Grey - Bill Clinton

Brown - My fart balloon

Purple - My mustard souffle

Red - Donald Duck

Blue - My avocado plant

Yellow - My pen pal in Ghana

Orange - My Kid Rock-collection

Pink - Manchester United's goalkeeper

None - My John F. Kennedy-statue

Other - The crazy monk



6. What do you prefer to watch on TV?

Scrubs - Man

O.C. - Emotional

One Tree Hill - Open

Heroes - Frostbitten

Lost - Scarred

Simpsons - Cowardly

The news - Mongolic

American Idol - Masochistic

Family Guy - Senile

Top Model - Middle-class

None of the above - Ashamed



7. Your mood right now?

Happy - How awful I've felt

Sad - How boring you are

Bored - That Santa doesn't exist

Angry - That your pimples are at the last stage

Depressed - That we're cousins

Excited - That there is no solution to this

Nervous - The middle-east

Worried - That your Honda sucks

Apathetic - That I did a sex-change

Ashamed - That I'm allergic to your hamster

Cuddly - That I get turned on by garbage men

Overjoyed - That I'm open

Other - That Extreme Home Makeover sucks



8. What's the color of your walls in your bedroom?

White - Your ring

Yellow - Your love letters

Red - Your Darth Vader

Black - Your tame stone

Blue - The couch cushions

Green - The pictures from LA

Orange - Your false teeth

Brown - Your contact book

Grey - Our matching snoopy-bibs

Purple - Your old lottery coupons

Pink - The cut toenails

Other - Your memories from the military service



9. The first letter of your first name?

A/B - Your photo

C/D - The oil stocks

E/F - Your neighbour Martin

G/H - My virginity

I/J - The results of your blood-sample

K/L - Your left ear

M/N - Your suicide note

O/P - My common sense

Q/R - Your mom

S/T - Your collection of butterflies

U/V - Your criminal record

W/X - David's tricot outfits

Y/Z - Your grades from college



10. The last letter in your last name?

A/B - Always will remember

C/D - Never will forget

E/F - Always wanted to break

G/H - Never openly mocked

I/J - Always have felt dirty before

K/L - Will tell the authorities about

M/N - Told in my confession today about

O/P - Was interviewed by the Times about

Q/R - Told my psychiatrist abou

tS/T - Get sick when I think of

U/V - Always will try to forget

W/X - Am better off without

Y/Z - Never liked



11. What do you prefer to drink?

Water- Our friendship

Beer - Senility

Soft drink - A new life as a clone

Soda - The incarnation as an eskimo

Milk - The apartment building

Wine - Cocaine abuse

Cider - A passionate interest for mice

Juice - Oprah Winfrey imitations

Mineral water - Embarrassing rash

Hot chocolate - Eggplant-fetishism

Whisky - To ruin the second world war

Other - To hate the Boston Celtics



12. To which country would you prefer to go on a vacation?

Thailand - Warm regards

USA - Best regards

England - Good luck on your short-term leave from jail

Spain - Go and drown yourself

China - Disgusting regards

Germany - With ease

Japan - Go burn

Greece - Your everlasting enemy

Australia - Greetings to your frog Leonard

Egypt - Fuck off now

France - In pain

Other - Greetings to your freaky family



13. What is your favorite activities when hanging out with mates?

Gathering for drinks - Ugly pig

Foosball - Silly duck

Shopping - French kisser

Dulging for food - Cranky banana

Movies - Smelly armpits

Snacks - Horny wolf

Snooker - Tiny nipples

Bowling - Sexy grandmother

Outdoor activities - Vain pot

Having a long talk - Nose plucker

Taking pictures - Dumb bitch

Other - Burn yourself



The Results :


Dear Chong Yen.

I don't really know how to tell you this, but I'm in love with your sister .I think I realized it when First of May At the mental hospital and I saw you Sit on My avocado plant . I'm sure you're Open enough to understand That Santa doesn't exist . I'm returning to you, but I'll keep Your left ear as a memory. You should also know that I Always will remember Eggplant-fetishism.Good luck on your short-term leave from jail.



Loves; Kia

P/S: You are so lifeless, Vain pot, Chong Yen

Hey You!
You Up There!!
havent you played me enough already???
am i not in a bad enough state already??!
why must u continue doing this?cnt u just leave me alone n go find someone else to prank?
like wad chong yen said,life is a bitch...hell seems like a better place than here right now...

15 Facts Bout Me

Rules


1.Each player of this game starts off with 15 weird things/habits/little known facts about yourself.

2. People who get tagged need to write a blog of their own 15 weird things/habits/little known facts as well as state this rule clearly.

3. At the end, you need to choose 10 people to be tagged and list their names.

4. No tags back!!

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1. Im a Gemini
   
2. Having said that..i am quite the emotional,sentimental type..
   
3. I believe in karma and fate.
   
4. I think now the big guy up there loves picking and playing around with me...
   
5. I used to be an optimistic person..
   
6. I just realised...everyone leaves...
   
7. One Tree Hill sort of made me more mature
8. I look good wearing formal *Thanks Vanitha..LOL!*
9. I don't do drugs, smoke or clubs..
10. I like driving my parent's new Waja
11. I really do not like the state that I am in now..
12. I can be sort of a hypocrite sometimes..
13. I noticed that there are plenty of "I"s in this tag..
14. My english are getting worse after i started college..
15. I hate this tag...

Tags:

Babystingray
Yiwen
Sherlyn
Mae Yin
Vanitha

Circumstances suck..

Right..like i've said..circumstances suck..i mean..circumstances destroys everything!from relationships to work to etc etc etc......okay maybe i might be exaggerating but then again..think about it..what destroys friendship or relationship?jealousy?misunderstanding?u might be right but it all boils down to a word called circumstances..we have choices in life..most of the time we will indirectly make them without us even noticing it..jealousy could be an example..if u could choose would u choose to be jealous?i guess not right?if u said yes then i guess u wanna be a big green monster...yea so get my point?


and i really suspect that i am cursed...i could have a great time the whole day...a really great time...and before the day ends..something bad will happen to me and bring all my happiness down on the double..im trying my best here not to be a pessismistic..but trust me im wearing thin down to my end point..im suppose to blog bout something nice and fun today but i guess my taste have been ruined now..great...

this sucks to the max..!!
and to think that things couldnt get any worse..
im sick now...
wtf is wrong with my luck??
wadz next?
see some supernatural beings???

this doesnt feel right at all.....
not at all....
sighh...

My first 4 points...

just got back from my first competitive basketball game...and i manage to get four points!and also manage to get a block..not bad d kay for a first timer..i know itz ntg much of an archievement yet..but will surely improve on tht...YI-WEN just u watch!hahha..

had a pleasant suprise..my girl actually went!and her finals is like the next day...
so i was really happy she came...was glad actually..
she might be behind the 4 points tht i earn..
hahah...

so yea...first competitve basketball match n we lost badly..but we will bounce back!

haha..

guess tht's it...
till the next post...choazz....

Rain rain rain rain......

as i was looking out the window..i saw birds...trying their very best to fight against the rain droplets..and yet sometimes they make it look so effortless..how do they do that?i don't remember learning bout birds flying against the force of the rain...so how do they do it????????

okay....im just bored....
my heads like gonna explode...
doing all the basics news value stuff...arghhh!!
help me!!

Im Sorry =(

To a friend name Lee Yi Wen ..

im very sorry i did not mentioned your name..
it just slipped out of my mind a moment there...
i promise that this won't happen again..
dun angry yea..
=P =P
hehe..
peace!

Free Handbag

girls..these is your chance to grab a free handbag in a once in a lifetime oppurtunity!
so get going and click on the link!
no scam or anything..
im just doing this on my girl's order =.=
lol..

Okay..for the first time after so long in college (or was it the second time?) i've been freaking busy!!oh man........time is like so valueable..even if i have 9 days in a week,it wun suffice for me..assignments..competition..and many more..haha..

so anyway..guess who i met yesterday in INTI? *went there to accompany my baby studying and do my assignments and eat lotz and lotz of junk food..*

i met.......

HANNAH TAN!!!...

Yeap yeap..met her and talked to her and was just a few feet away from her..well..though i wasnt really drooling over her *but lun xiang did..he even got tongue tied! lol* she still do have some celebrity status so i was like..wow for a moment there...actually we're not suppose to take her pic wan..must sign up for some stuff only can take pic with her..hehe..baby took this pic without anyone noticing her (can be a future paparazi d)..poor lun xiang..u should see his face when he couldnt take any pic with her...haha..anyway..post-hannah tan session..all went back to normal when kevin came down and there goes the fuss bout hannah tan again..lol..after the craze me and me girl went some where to study in inti..really do have good facilities..more high tech than han chiang..(i still love you han chiang..i think =p) then we hang around there till like 6 something 7..went for dinner then sent her back to the hostel..tht is pretty much bout everything on tht day..


before i end the day..i thought back what my socio lecturer miss ooi taught us..and i ask myself..how cruel can this world be???now..everytime i walk out from the socio class..the way i see the world change..cultural shock and violence that is happening behind the closed door..honestly im still shaken from the effects of the class..itz a mind nimbling experience or whatever u call it..

anyways!

today i fetched me girl and jyee to register for their ielts (did i spelt it wrongly?) exam in pulau tikus...so after registering and all went to gurney a lil while for the korean fair and for some lunch..well it was a much smaller scale than i expected..bought a few packets of korean noodles there..can eat it instantly or can cook it..up to you..how cool is that??lol...they had some performances by a dance group called b boy...at first i thought it would be nice as korean are good at dancing...but i forgot a point...they're good at dancing but they are better at break dancing...so yea..95% of their dance is break dancing..so much for my excitement..i don't really like a full scale break dancing performance..dance here n there still the same wan..booooorrrrriiinnnggggg!

so we went for lunch at a taiwanese restaurant in gurney..very nice environment...food is so so and for the first time i drank pearly milk tea and i love it! =D here are some pics...

nice light

retarded me and blur jyee =D

the food that both of the ladies ate..
this is what i ate..

and last but not least..


us =)

so after we leaved and went back to her hostel and going to accompany her to study somewhere around her college..hehe..suprisingly we met with joel and jon toh and wen ping and marcus with their classmates i assume..doing some projects assignments...i was happily watching What Happens In Vegas..very very funny..should watch it!so sent her back and i went home..then i came to me girl's hostel study room and accompany her to study while im doing this blog..well am sort of guilty for not doing any work today..tonight must pia till like crazy d..argghhhh...but itz all worth it as i can spend some time with her..hehe...

well i guess tht's all for now...
till the next post...
chaozzzzzzzzz~~~

ulcers are killing me...
experts says kissing can heal ulcers...
izzit true???
only one way to find out..lol XD

You know...whenever i start blogging i really hate this part..the beginning part..it's perhaps im really bad at starting things up..figuring what ways and how to start talking about something..eventhough i have alot to say..but whenever i come to this early part..im always stuck..sometimes i take around half an hour to figure out bout what to write..or sometimes i just wouldnt bother to write it out at all..it's like..im not warmed up bout the first part..

same goes to the other few aspects of my daily life..i do not like to start from the bottom when u're working..i do not like having the first group discussions when we need to do assignments..and etc etc...but heck we always have to go through this phase..i can tell u that i am NOT enjoyin this front period of the post..perhaps my vocab n stuff is not really that good yet or grammar or whatever u call it..im just not enjoyin this..u know wad?im in the mood to type out some craps and nonsense and some funny thoughts thats running through my head right now..no im not being emo or anything (usually people associate this behaviour as emo-ness) but im not..im just...errmmm..bored?yea..bored..even i have loads of assignments to do..but im bored..

i realised i've changed in the past few weeks..there's good and there's bad as well..the good part is..im being happier and more content with my life now..my love life to be exact..i wasnt exactly thinking straight then..being sad and all..i was sort of going back to my old self..the high school self..the ones with the not-so-matured-thinkin kind of guy..thinking that if i stay depressed and all..i will get what i want..but i was wrong..and lucky to have a wake up call..now looking back..i compare my oldself to a 7 year old kid i used to remember..a 7 year old kid who couldnt get what he wants and whine till he gets what he wants..honestly,i was sort of disguested..i was disgusted with my attitude,with my thinking and selfishness then..thank goodness i realised what was wrong..i realised..

1. being down and depressed is not a way to solve things..
2. mean every word u said..every promises u made..
   
3. if you love that person..let them do what they want to do..even if it means not being together..

i do not wanna sound like the same old love-blogger-kind-of-guy but..never say i love you unless u mean it..dont say it out of obligation but say it if u mean it..coz when u say it when u mean it..u'll have a very nice feeling..u'll know..

now for the not so good news is that i have not been a very good friend to my closest girl-friend..yes..i know im sorry i've been ignoring u n all..due to all the circumstances in life..but trust me..if i could make it up to u in the future..i would..if u're reading this my friend..i know u wouldnt wanna get ur hopes up high...i understand..but dun lose hope in us..being close friends for most of high school years is something special for me..i've lost one very close friend and i dun intend to lose another..

life's so far been treating me well and not well..but come to think of it..i've been blessed..though i do not have the riches of david beckham or donald trump..but i have a blessed family(although sometimes they are not that bless=p)..someone i love..friends..i have what some people can only dream of..im sure most of u all out there have all these..a note to my troubled friend..count ur blessings man..i do not know how to say this but u have a whole new wonderful thing that is going on around you..time to let go n start living a life..u're only 18 once so enjoy it..

so tht is all for my random bla blas today..
till the next post..
choazzzzzzzzzz~~

Keep me in your heart
and go see the world..
once you're done
come back to me..
i'll be here waiting for you

Itz the first day of Raya!!...not it means anything to me..other than me getting an extra day off from college..hehe..was suppose to go n have a game of football in PFS..but i went late a lil bit..yes a lil bit only coz my laptop came early in the morning...imagine the guy looking at me like i've just came out of a hungover the night before..so anyways...am really happy and glad that i've finally got the laptop...

BBBUUUTTT!

My laptop came with a small-cutie pinky colour mouse...
i asked the guy "....why pink??"
and he answered.."sorry la..i was in the rush..i thought it was red so i picked it.."

=.=

so anyway..after all the fuss bout my new laptop i head out to play football..ahhh..wad a great day for football i thought...and i was never so wrong..once i reached there and got down the field..my first touch of the ball was the most painful one i had since god knows when..Joe Jin kicked the ball straight up at my..well..two balls..so yea..itz a case "When Ball Meets the Balls"..and itz at a freaking point blank range!!so yea..the field was wet..and im the latest one who arrived there and yet im the wettest and dirtiest there coz i have to roll down on the floor and cry and cry for pain..and guess wad?

IT DOESNT STOP THERE!!

The bloody football still havent got enough of meeting my poor meat balls..yea so i got hit again..and as usual..i rolled down again..and there are more laughters..there i go..getting dirtier...not only tht..i've been hit on my tummy..kneed on my head...fall and land on my ass and well the list goes on...so in conclusion..today isnt a really good day for playing football..haha..

alrighty..i guess tht is all for my post now..gotta go prepare for lotz of assignments stuff d...busssyyyyy!!!
till the next post..
chaozzzzz!!

I MISS YOU!!

Morning..

What a morning it was..very enjoyable..and i must say itz the first time i had such a crazy dim sum outing..lol..

Went to had dim sum with Eng Siang,Eng Siang's friend that goes by the name of J.Qin,my dear grandma Karen and my baby..we went to a place near my apartment..since baby overnighted at my place the night before we walked there together..and we reached early..the place was hell packed!

anyway..after awhile..Eng Siang and the rest arrive and that is when all the fun started..Eng Siang is the target of teases and sarcasm from karen and my baby and unfortunately..Jqin as well..they were teasing him..shooting him..u name it they've done it!as for me..i have very good free live comedy..and karen even made Eng Siang's ball..without any ball with the leftover food!..i guess u might not know wad im talking bout..but oh well..im still gonna post the pic up anyway...
See those things there?yeap..that is eng siang's balless ball..XD

off the record..
itz been a wonderful way to spend the morning..im sure and hope that there will be many more to come!=)

alright..so till the next post..
chaozzzzzzzz..

Just some random thoughts..

I've been wallowing in self-pity at late..abusing myself for something that has not happen and might not even happen..i've been beating up myself for this since the start of this week...

But for wad reason?

for nothing..things that i should have known better that it will never happen..perhaps my friends are right...why worry when things haven't even happen yet?...you know,we humans are sometimes weird..we tend to worry bout stuff that might not even happen..i must say..human minds are one of the deadliest weapon..to others and also onto ourselves...our mind or our so called instinct will make us think that something bad or horrible will happen..though sometimes those instincts are true..but most of the time..itz all in our minds..

i once asked my two friends in college who are having long distance relationships with their partners,one whom are already in a 2 year relationship and another a year..so...i asked them...

Kia : how do u guys stay in a long distance relationship for so long?

Both friends: trust...that simple..

so yea..trust is wadz lacking in most people nowadays..and same goes to me as well..atleast untill tonight i hope..as some of u may know tht im lamenting bout my baby's stay in penang..i've been thinkin of this stuff...bout wad i will do..wad will happen..why isnt my gf being sad bout it?and etc etc..until tonight..i finally got a wake up call why she aint feeling all of this depressing stuff that is running through my head..no itz not because she doesnt like me anymore..but itz coz she believes in me and trust me..it struck me deep down..and i asked myself...

Why didnt i think of this before??

i was drowned in the world of sorrowness and i totally left my rationality out on the shore...now im back up and ITZ NOT OVER..
instead...

i sense now it's a beginning of something new..something good..
soo...
u peepz out there..trust ur partner..or even your close friend..or whoever he or she may be..althought sometimes things might not turn out what they seems to be.but have faith..because with faith..it will take u far..

and to you my baby..
i will always remember wad u say..
will love you always and forever!!=)

I've been tagged..by Mae Yin

1] Real name: Kiatisak Chua

[02] Nickname: VegeKia, Kia, Kasitaik

[03] Married: nope..

[04] Zodiac Sign: Gemini

[05] Gender: The one with the banana

[06] Age: 18

[07] High School: S.M.K Penang Free School

[08] College:Han Chiang College

[09] Height: letz see...179cm..

[10] Weight: 65kg

[11] Do you like yourself: yes

12] Piercings:i love my body..the only holes i need is my nose holes,ear holes and asshole..

[13] Right or left:right,left and center

[14] Are you a freak : sometimes i guess i am..

[15] Hair:ermm..curly i guess..

[16] Skin: natural

[17] Allergic: none i think

[18] What are you doing now: listening to songs

[19] What will you doing 1hour later: hopefully i'll be able to sleep..

[20] What will you doing 10 years later:hopefully i am still alive by then..

FAMILY

[21] Live with mother/father/parents: parents

[22] Siblings(included you): 4

[23] Eldest: errr..can say itz me ler..

[24] Youngest: my youngest bro la..

[25] Love/hate your family:love and sometimes hate em..

THE LOVE

[26] You found your another half: yes..

[27] If yes, who is he/she: babystingray~

[28] If no, who you want he/she to be: no one else =)

[29] Time(s) you in relationship: 4

[30] Ever woo boy/girl(0-100000):wow..i've..lost count..haha

[31] Anyone woo you before(0-100000): aiseh..lost count also..hahah..just kdding..dunno..

[32] Did anything wrong to your other half: i guess so..

[33] What was/were the wrong you had done: this tag could either ruin a relationship or fix em..

[34] Ever argue with your other half: nope!=)

[35] You with your other half since: June 24th 2008!

[36] Are you straight/gay:straight and gay..lol..

[37] Reasons you love your other half: i love her because i love her..full stop

[38] You and your other half in which stage: for me to know and for u to find out

[39] You woo he/she or he/she woo you: we wooed each other..lol..i wooed her..haha

[40] Ever think of marry he/she: yes..

THE FRIENDS

[41] Your first best friend: Lee Joe Jin

[42] Your first enemy: Hate

[43] The friend you love the most(1only): list are too long..

[44] The enemy you hate the most(1only): Loneliness..

[45] Your most beautiful girl friend: Ng ShinRui!lol

[46] Your most handsome boy friend: Teo Mou Jian!

[47] The kind of girl you hate the most: wannabes...

[48] The kind of boy you hate the most: me

[49] You fall in love with your close friend before: yes..once..

[50] Your best friend is your ex-lover:not that i know..haha

[51] If your friend backstabbed you: forgive and forget...

[52] If your friend betray you: number 51

[53] If your friend woo your lover: if she is happier with him..i'll let her go..

[54] If your friend fall in love with you: wow..speechless..

[55] If you fall in love with your best friend: not at all..u know right??hahha

[68] Good looking people: every living people on earth..

[69] Ugly people: not that i remember

[70] Funny people: damn alot...

[71] Cute people: si pek che

[72] Bad people: wanna know?rob a bank and they'll send u to a place where u will find em..

[73] Honest people:wanna know..jump off the building and pray tht u go to heaven..

[74] Acting people: Hollywoods..Bollywoods..and other woods la..

[75] What kind of person are you: im a boy and believe it or not..i feel that my last life i was a girl..lol..

THE PREFERENCE

[76] Lip or eyes: eyes

[77] Hugs or kisses:..can i go for both?

[78] Shorter or taller: taller

[79] hesitant or spontaneous: spontaneuous

[80] Nice stomach or nice arms: errr...both

[81] Listener or talker: both

[82] Romantic or rich: Romantic

[83] Good wife/husband or good mother/father:both..

THE FUTURE

[84] Age to get married:when i get rich..

[85] Numbers of kid(s):form a football team..minimum basketball..

[86] Career:Vj,host,air steward..billionaire

[87] Salary:unlimited resource?

[88] Retirement age: as soon as possible..

[89] Properties value: zilch..

[90] Wishes: Good Luck!

THE VICTIMS
Anyone who reads this!

You know wad i just realise?
i just realised tht im a hypocrite..
yes a big fat one!
so for those who have seen that in me before i realised it..
u're a keen observer..or perhaps im just to blind to realised it myself..
oh great..now im a hypocrite..
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Damn it!

What peanut butter do to your dreams..

Have you guys ever ate peanut butter before going to bed..and the result of that have a very vivid dream?..i've had it..infact..itz a funny and sort of scary dream..since im bored here might as well i blog bout it...so right..i had peanut butter..yes..only peanut butter..no bread no biscuits..just pure peanut butter before i went to bed last night..and man..i didnt expect to be taken for a ride in my dream..

do u all know bout the cartoon character Ben10?the kid who stumble upon a funny alien devices that can change him into 10 alien heroes..yea..that cartoon..and well..i sort of dreamt bout that..lol..i dreamt that i have that funny devices stuck on my wrist..so yea..itz sort of cool(in the dream) that i can transfer myself into 10 alien heroes..that is the funny part..the spooky part is..i've started to take a prt time job in some hypermarket (i have no idea why) and apparently the manager is a..ermm..ghost alien..right..and in it's human form..the aghost alien is actually my college's librarian @.@ like wth??i even remembered saying "arent u my college's librarian??" and she started chasing me around..so i guess that means i have to stay away from my college's library...and man i duno why.it was just pure scary..haha...thank god i woke up not long after the chase..yea..so tht concludes the drama of my funny n spooky dreams..lol..lame i know..but i thought i should get this out..the moral of this dream is...never eat peanut butter and sleep..unless u wanna have an adreanaline rush when u sleep..haha..

on another note..i have just realise the word FUCK is actually a blessing!and the blessing is from the King himself..well..atleast that was the case in perhaps..the time of King Arthur?according to the coolest lecturer i've ever had..Miss Ooi..FUCK stands for Fortification Under the Consent of the King..it's some sort of like a marriage certificate for people in the old centuries..and according to my lecturer..when they wanna..well..continue the production of human beings..they will put the sign 'FUCK' outside the house..itz some sort like telling your neighbourhood.."hey guys..do not disturb please..im fucking" lol..imagine if people still practise this in the world now..i wonder how many homemade porn dvd's will be produced..lol..so anyways..now we know that FUCK is actually a blessing word instead of an insulting one...

FUCK YOU people!=)

Till the next post..
chaozzzz!

Itz really frustrating at times..

Baking Time!

Itz wednesday and itz holiday!well not for all..only for Pakatan Rakyat states..boohoo for BN states..so bless this lovely wednesday..hehe..since itz a holiday..babystingray came over to my place the whole day..our agenda today was to bake the deliciously scrumptious cake tht we had planned to do it for the past week..hehe..so she came over early in the morning..and she studied and i did my stuff which is playing around in the house with my bros and disturbing her..i know..itz childish..ahaha..anyway..somewhere around the evening we head to Batu Lanchang market to buy the ingredients we need for the cake..so after tht we head to Queensbay to sign up for the Penang Bridge run...signed up for the fun walk only..dun think can get anytin by joining the real run..sure will end up somewhere in the back...sooo signed up for the fun run...interested anyone?haha..

after having dinner both of us got down to business..baking the cake!as usual..i was the assistant and me baby is the main baker..haha..after much hussle we finally completed the cake...and it smells really good!haha..due to the long period of time we took for the cake to bake..me baby spend a night at my place...and like wad Kevin said in his blog...we.....SLEPT..seriously tired after all the baking here n there...hehe..i'll end this post with some of the pics i took...enjoy!hehe..

The cook hard at work...

The cake before it enters the microwave..

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After a few hours..
Tada~~
The Christmas Chocolate Cake..


Here is the baker..
poor baby..she looks real tired..
hehe