You know...whenever i start blogging i really hate this part..the beginning part..it's perhaps im really bad at starting things up..figuring what ways and how to start talking about something..eventhough i have alot to say..but whenever i come to this early part..im always stuck..sometimes i take around half an hour to figure out bout what to write..or sometimes i just wouldnt bother to write it out at all..it's like..im not warmed up bout the first part..

same goes to the other few aspects of my daily life..i do not like to start from the bottom when u're working..i do not like having the first group discussions when we need to do assignments..and etc etc...but heck we always have to go through this phase..i can tell u that i am NOT enjoyin this front period of the post..perhaps my vocab n stuff is not really that good yet or grammar or whatever u call it..im just not enjoyin this..u know wad?im in the mood to type out some craps and nonsense and some funny thoughts thats running through my head right now..no im not being emo or anything (usually people associate this behaviour as emo-ness) but im not..im just...errmmm..bored?yea..bored..even i have loads of assignments to do..but im bored..

i realised i've changed in the past few weeks..there's good and there's bad as well..the good part is..im being happier and more content with my life now..my love life to be exact..i wasnt exactly thinking straight then..being sad and all..i was sort of going back to my old self..the high school self..the ones with the not-so-matured-thinkin kind of guy..thinking that if i stay depressed and all..i will get what i want..but i was wrong..and lucky to have a wake up call..now looking back..i compare my oldself to a 7 year old kid i used to remember..a 7 year old kid who couldnt get what he wants and whine till he gets what he wants..honestly,i was sort of disguested..i was disgusted with my attitude,with my thinking and selfishness then..thank goodness i realised what was wrong..i realised..

1. being down and depressed is not a way to solve things..
2. mean every word u said..every promises u made..
   
3. if you love that person..let them do what they want to do..even if it means not being together..

i do not wanna sound like the same old love-blogger-kind-of-guy but..never say i love you unless u mean it..dont say it out of obligation but say it if u mean it..coz when u say it when u mean it..u'll have a very nice feeling..u'll know..

now for the not so good news is that i have not been a very good friend to my closest girl-friend..yes..i know im sorry i've been ignoring u n all..due to all the circumstances in life..but trust me..if i could make it up to u in the future..i would..if u're reading this my friend..i know u wouldnt wanna get ur hopes up high...i understand..but dun lose hope in us..being close friends for most of high school years is something special for me..i've lost one very close friend and i dun intend to lose another..

life's so far been treating me well and not well..but come to think of it..i've been blessed..though i do not have the riches of david beckham or donald trump..but i have a blessed family(although sometimes they are not that bless=p)..someone i love..friends..i have what some people can only dream of..im sure most of u all out there have all these..a note to my troubled friend..count ur blessings man..i do not know how to say this but u have a whole new wonderful thing that is going on around you..time to let go n start living a life..u're only 18 once so enjoy it..

so tht is all for my random bla blas today..
till the next post..
choazzzzzzzzzz~~

Keep me in your heart
and go see the world..
once you're done
come back to me..
i'll be here waiting for you