Chapter 10 - Still Alive

After one whole week of studying and working..im still pretty much alive..i have not lagged any sleep, i have not been any less concentrated in class..yea,so im doing quite well..much have to be boiled down to the short sem im going through right now..im only gonna take Malaysian Studies and Moral for this sem..and each day..i have like an average of 2 to 3 hours in college,so i pretty much can cope with it..this is much easier than high school..lol..

So right..college just started on monday..and truth to be told,i dun look forward to taking these two subjects..i mean..who wants to learn bout History ever again (scar from SPM) especially politics (totally not a fan of politics..find politicians very pathetic and childish at times) and not to forget..going back to the same concepts of read and memorizing part of moral..just that this time there is more and itz harder...thank goodness for Han Chiang..they chose the right lecturers (except for KCS) to teach these two dreaded subjects..

I especially find Mr Eric to be pretty fun and crazy..his class is well..fun and crazy..lol..he has all this kind of stories which can totally open up your perception on alot of the general things in our life like religion and etc etc..after his class,i really think he can start a cult called, ERICOLOGY..he is the type of person that i will really listen to..whatever teachings he does..it seriously does have a strong sense of logic in it..like when he said, "it's very sad these days that people turn religion in to a business"..that is something very true,but im sure not all of us notice it right?he even did juggling to teach the class..lol..

well i guess that is all for this chapter..
till the next chapter..
chaozzz!

it wasnt alright at first..
but on second thought..
im okay with it!

Chapter 9 - Make or Break

This year will either make me or break me..if i were to make the predictions on whether i will make or break, i will,based on all the past experiences..go for break me..

Im not being pessimistic..okay well yea im sort of being a pessimistic in a way..but with the looks on how things goees in the past..i always make the wrong choices,not all but mostly..I have to choose which i would wanna major in after this sem of mine..and im still sitting on the fence for either PR or Journalism..many people would jump at the chance of taking PR but sadly if your name is Kiatisak Chua, you would have to think hard..think really really hard cause i actually do not have the most creative minds around you see..and my arts and designs......dun let me start there..on the other hand..im pretty good at news writting..but i seriously do not wanna enter journalism..i duno why..itz just not my thing..im afraid i would not do well in the later stage due to zero percent of interest in it..i need a counsellor for this prob..but who??and i need someone to fund me to further my studies abroad if my college doesnt have any links with any local U..so like i've say..this year pretty much decide what my future gonna be..sighh..

as usual..i start the year with high enthuasism that things will finally turn out great..and as usual as well..early expectations always dissapoint me..things are slowly but surely turning sour in every aspect..it has always been like this for since god knows when..sigh..i know i should count my blessings but each of us do have our own dissastisfaction rite?who doesnt?

i think as i grow every year,my luck pretty much dwindle away with it..just great..and to make things worse..though i never say it out often i've always felt insufficient in lotz of things and in lotz of aspect..brains, trust,confidence,talents..securities..the list just goes on..and all i got is just more negative elements compare to positives one..

im hanging in there everyday wit the little positive left in me..im not gonna sit down n cry..im just gonna drag my ass out of this hole..

till the next chapter..
chaozzzz

Chapter 8 - The things that we do

We're very "kaypo" bout other people's business..we're more concerned with other country's prob when our very own country is not doing well..tsk tsk..i mean it's alrite and cool that we show our symphaty and compassion and etc etc to those in palestinian..but not to the extreme extend..this will just complicate stuff and it totally doesnt help our country's growth..i mean i totally feel for those in palestinian and itz good that we send some aids there..but not too over..

We,Malaysians have this mindset of looking at the big picture and sweeping all the small and petty problems away..not only politicians but almost everyone i know is like that..take for example..the government wants Malaysia to be a developed country but how can we be one when almost every traffic light for the pedestrian crossing is either vandalized or never been repaired...just yesterday as i was going to work i saw a couple of tourist pondering whether they should cross the road or not when the button for the traffic light is vandalized.. they even used the pen to try press in the thing but itz never gonna work..then they just shake their head in some sort of disbelief way and just use their instinct to cross the heavy traffic road..i mean..is this our way of being a developed country?i felt ashamed..

oh well..this is just a very random rambling..

to a brighter note..I FINALLY GOT THE EMAIL REPLY FROM ME LOVE!!!!
end up i couldnt sleep at all for the whole nite...lol..
next, i'll be waiting for you to come back to Penang!hehe..

till the next chapter..
chaozzzz

Chapter 7 - Ice cream Tips and Wars

Guess what?
i got tips of a total RM 10 today!well roughly around RM10 ler..well for some of you it might not be alot but hey..where u gonna get RM10 for just being polite and nice?and to top it all..itz weekdays and usually weekday they do not have alot of customers and to get RM10 is good..well..i guess it all boils down to me not wearing specs..seriously, i wore specs for the first few days of work i dun even collect RM10 of tips..but now without specs..i got RM10 in jsut a day!curses specs..lol..oh well..anyway the downside is...i have to give the tips back to the cashier =( haha...

im actually quite scared tht i'll turn into an obese guy(yes laugh sher lyn..laugh)..been eating lotz of ice cream since i worked in Haagen Dazs..take for example today..i've sampled practically every flavour there is in the store..TWICE! and some thrice...not only tht..i've been eating all the cookies and marshmallows tht are lying there waiting for someone to eat em..so i..*nibble nibble* then *munch munch* then *sit, burp* =D
of course i dun take gaji buta..i work also k..hahah..

well..comes a sadder note is the WAR that is happening between the Israelis and Palestinians..its really really sad to see that so many innocent children died because of this war..poor souls..but that doesnt mean other palestinians should run riot in another country thats so far away like france (see how they overturn the cars?)

know what should they do?they should just sit down and have haagen dazs ice cream =) ice cream is a magic tool tht cools people down..especially haagen dazs..so if everyone sits at haagen dazs and eats ice cream all day..we can promote world peace..the worst you can get is brain freeze or tooth decay..itz much better than grenades and machine guns right?

im a good promoter, no?=P

till the next chapter..
chaozzzz!!

Chapter 6 - Condolences

All my heart goes out to John Trovolta and his family whose son, Jett Trovolta just passed away recently..This song is specially dedicated to John's family..





Life's too short..appreciate and love it..

Chapter 5 -Day 5 into New Year

...im still stuck halfway with my new year resolution list.

Call it a product of procrastination but hey, old habits die hard right..?and the worst part is that I don't see it changing anytime this year 2009. If it does then it's a miracle and well, miracle don't chance upon me very often.

I'm actually still pretty stuck up in year 2008, I don't know why I just couldn't really let go of it yet. Perhaps..just perhaps it's incomplete..my year is just incomplete without having you around me.

I was having a random chat with one of my close friend, G.Well,G suddenly asked me this question, "ever wonder if X and SR are the right choice for us?". All i thought of was the problem we had before she left but not what if...what if one day the big guy up there decides to take your loved one away from you?or maybe he/she is too good for you?It struck a chord in my head and the thought is still running through my head,keeping me awake till now. Am i good enough for her? Will i find another girl like her again?

How ones loyalty and feelings waver to another so easily really amuse me sometimes..especially when it comes to the relationship part.I mean what is the use of being together when you are out chasing other girls at the same time?(generally,not towards anyone). I know you are not tied down or anything but where is the sincerity and say-it-like-you-mean-it when you say I Love You?I don't mean that im a perfect example of boyfriend because I am not but one thing for sure when I am in a relationship her,feelings or loyalty have not wavered..and it's not because itz for the sake of the relationship but I just mean it. I do not enjoy playing with anyone feelings and see them sad. In another word, I am not a sadistic.

It's been 12 days since she went away and i miss her every second. Yea i know 12 days are short but to me it feels like eternity. Cliche you might say?Not unless if you're in love.But days do come and nights do past..im doing my very best to channel everything into doing something else and wait for her till she comes back.

Keep myself busy.
That's what i gotta do..

It's been awhile since i let my fingers run through the keyboard with my mind saying out every single stuff im saying now without having any second thoughts on it and it might sound very cheesy to almost all of you..i gotta get it out somehow..

oh well..i guess i should use this advantage to finish my other half of resolutions..late is better than never..

till the next chapter..
chaozzzzzzz..



one more thing..the answer is no.
i WON'T be able to find another girl like you anymore,Ng Shin Rui..
i love you!

Chapter 4 - Work

I started work at Haagen Daz yesterday and boy..did it started bad..i lost the freaking cap!thanks to chong yen who keeps playing with it..hahah..thank goodness for the supervisor..she has like extra i think..whatever izzit..im really lucky that nothing bad happened on the first day..

Yi-wen was right..it is not easy working there..lotz of things to do..dun think it looks small and you have less job to do...looks can be deceiving..really deceiving..haha..oh well..this wasnt the bad part..the bad or should i say the worst part bout all tht is i can only see and serve the ice cream!=( lol..hopefully i'll get used to it soon before i started turning berserk and start eating all the ice cream and fondue and and.....okay im just crapping crap here...

anyway..there was this couple who ordered fondue..and i guess the girl was upset with the guy or something like tht..so right, they ordered the fondue and i served them..and for the next freaking 20 mins,they didnt even touch the freaking fondue!!wtsweetheck man!the ice cream balls which can be easily worth rm20!and thank goodness..sanity struck the guy so he just slowly eat up..we workers sort of serve and watch at the same time..and the girl started to eat and thank goodness it did not go to waste..rm63.80 man..

nothing much happened ler..saw lotz of ppl but they dun really recognise me in the cap..haha..oh well..it was an eventful first day at work at the service line..haha..

apart from that i guess nothing much happened ler..unless you want me to blog bout how much i miss my girlfriend..
i guess not..XD

so till the next chapter..
chaozzzz!!