Chapter 21 - He makes guys with painted nails cool..

For you guys and girls who watch American Idol season 8 MUST be a fan of this guy..


seriously..after last 2 nights performance, he certainly deserves a standing ovation..he is a new type of singer..for me he is a rocker,punk and everything nice in it..okay,i might be over-exaggerating it..but hey, u have u to listen to find out..if u guys thinks he rocks..then welcome to the club..if not..go dig ur ears!lol..he certainly can go a long way...he makes guys who puts on nail polish looks macho..he brings back the cool-ness to the rocker cum emo style..he is serious talent..and he totally stands out in group 2..totally outclassed everyone..ahh..david cook and steven tyler, make way for the new guy!

On another note..i served a group of Japanese guys in Haagen Dazs..lol..nice experience..i like the way they try to speak english..they remind me of him..

YATAAAAAA!!!

the more serious side of him..

yeap..that's right..for those of u who doesnt know him..he is Hiro Nakamura..tht's his character's name in Heroes..real name is Masi Oka...i like especially when those japanese guys said thank you..it sounds like "Thang Kiu"..=D

well i guess that's all for now..
till the next chapter..
chaozzzzzzzz..
and Thang Kiu =p

Chapter 20 -Dilemma no more!

Itz now 1.40am in the morning..and i cant seem to hit the snooze mood..there are just so many things that are running through my mind..nope,this is not another emo post from me so dont worry,itz safe to read on if u're lookin for a non emo post =)

Well anyway, i've finally made up my mind..that i'll be majoring in journalism!yesss, journalism!honestly, just a couple of hours ago i was still being on the fence regarding this majoring stuff..PR or journalism?then thanks to me being an insomniac lately..i've started to think..ALOT and DEEPLY into this matter and after a very long and thorough considerations on both sides..i've decided to commit myself to journalism..

Reasons why i chose journalism over PR?....i forgot=P(my mind was in a turbulent and chaotic state trying to figure out what to choose)
Well what i do remember is that im pretty encouraged by the fact that i got an A for my news writting (english i got an A-) so this should mean something right?i mean yea..alot of people score for that subject but hey,this doesnt mean that the lecturer is being lenient but the students are very good at it..right?right?...right!..so i've never said it before but im actually quite proud of it..

Secondly, you will not be growing grapes (menganggur) if u're in the field of journalist because if you are, you're either one hell of a useless ass or the world have become too dumb and retarded to know how to read so yea..the percentage for me being unemployed is 1 to 1000 or more..even some research (that lotz of people have been talking about but i dont know what research izzit) shows that journalist is one of the 10 occupations that are not being affected by the economy meltdown..so a tick for me..as im the eldest and i have 2 lil bros to support in the future..job security is a must for me..

Thirdly..im actually not really good at anything..err..yea..im just quite the average or below average kind of guy..even in writting..yea,though i get an A in news writting but then i still feel that itz not really up to the standard that can take me far..why did i choose journalism then?apart from the two reasons stated..another one would be because this is where i know i can still improve..i still have time..atleast one sem to improve on my writting and language,so yea fingers crossed that i'll be able to improve alot before i set out on my training next year...

Next, this would be my ticket out of this country..no, im not saying Malaysia is not a good country..i mean why isnt it not a good country?other than the racial issue,childish politicians, more racial issues, more childish politicians, stupid racist principle of Penang Free School and bad traffic light..being a Malaysian isnt such a bad idea..right?right?...RRRIGHHT!..i just want to live my life to the fullest..explore every part of the world if i could..and being a journalism..the oppurtunities are there..travelling has always been one of my unsung passion..i'll have the chance to fulfill that passion..im not that guy who sits in the office from 8-5..doing the routine work over and over and over again..perhaps that's why im bored out pretty fast working in the mall..and the best thing bout it is "I get to travel around for free" quotes Mr Razeef..one of my lecturers...a funny fella..=D

Another reason is...is that perhaps i get to cover news about sports..badminton,basketball,swimming,football..football..football..football..right, main thing is bout football..lol..so yea..i hope i'll get a chance to be based in England as a sports journalist or something like that..then woohoohoo!every weekend..covering news from the Kop and singing the anthem YOU'LL NEVER WALK ALONE..ahh...that's a dream..ask every football fan..they'll answer u the same thing..minus the journalist part..that's my part..lol..

To archieve all those..i need to improve on alot of things u see..first on the lisst is my old die hard habit - procrastination- ughh...need to stop procrastinating!
next would be to improve on my language and writting skills..books books books..i need more books!
next would be...ermm..errmm..havent figure it out yet..feeling a lil too sleepy..

i do not know why..i always have ideas to blog and write and think during the middle of the night..odd..really really odd..=.="

oh welll..after all this typing..feeling a lil sleepy..
i guess that's all for now for this chapter..
till the next one..
chaozzzz!!!!!

8 months of being together..
contains the best and worst times in my life..
perhaps that's the reason why i greatly treasure this period being with you..
and hopes that it continues to go on..
much love,
your honey~~~~=D

Chapter 19 - Hungry

Lately i do not know what is wrong with me..i'm always feeling very hungry no matter how much i've ate..

Even after consuming an extra large bowl of hokkien mee, I still crave for more and more food..and instead of growing fatter, im slimming down...just by eating more food!is this weird or wad?do i have tapeworms in my intestines or do i have a fatal disease??

Im already feeling hungry as Im typing this post..ughh..

okay la,time to go n hunt for food in my fridge!boring post i know..lol..
till the next chapter..
chaozzz!!

Chapter 18 - Clear the air..

Just to let anyone know and to prevent any further misunderstandings...
the person in chapter 16 is me aite..
no one else but me..
sorry for the misunderstandings..

Chapter 17 - The Fray

It's been a long time since i've uploaded a song here...so here is The Fray -You Found Me..
what i like is the lyrics..so enjoy guys..

I found god
On the corner of first and Amistad
Where the west was all but won
All alone, smoking his last cigarette
I Said where you been, he said ask anything
Where were you?
When everything was falling apart
All my days were spent by the telephone
It never rang
And all I needed was a call
That never came
To the corner of first and Amistad

Lost and insecure
You found me, you found me
Lying on the floor
Surrounded, surrounded
Whyd you have to wait?
Where were you? Where were you?
Just a little late
You found me, you found me

In the end everyone ends up alone
Losing her, the only one whos ever known
Who I am, who Im not, who I want to be
No way to know how long she will be next to me

Lost and insecure
You found me, you found me
Lying on the floor
Surrounded, surrounded
Whyd you have to wait?
Where were you, where were you?
Just a little late
You found me, you found me

Early morning, City breaks
Ive been calling for years and years and years and years
And you never left me no messages
You never send me no letters
You got some kind of nerve, taking all I want

Lost and insecure
You found me, you found me
Lying on the floor
Where were you where were you?

Lost and insecure
You found me, you found me
Lying on the floor
Surrounded, surrounded
Whyd you have to wait?
Where were you, where were you?
Just a little late
You found me, you found me
why'd you have to wait
to find me, to find me

Chapter 16 - What Happens When You Make The Wrong Move?

..You'll be down right miserable of course..!

Right, in the last chapter i blogged about Decisions..now, what happens if you made the wrong decision?well actually nothing much is gonna happen other than you being a screw up and telling yourself I-Should-Have-Never-Done-That-Fffing-Thing-In-The-First-Place..
Phew..that was long..

There is this guy i know..i've known him for quite a long time d..though i've known him for a very very long time, he can be very volatile at times, he is quite sensitive towards everything..sometimes i wonder if he was suppose to be born a girl..perhaps the big Guy up there made a mistake..don't get me wrong,he aint a faggot or anything..he is just..very sensitive i guess..

What's wrong with being sensitive you may ask?well..technically there is nothing really bad about being sensitive..i mean you will always always think bout what other people feel before doing or saying anything out or you know..just being a nice kid who doesnt gets on people's nerves and therefore you'll be likeable..BUT if you're being overly sensitive and especially when you have a ever changing moods and emotions..that spells D-I-S-A-S-T-E-R..

Yea, so this dude has this man-period quite often although he is also often the bubbly type of guy too..i've persoanlly observed him and noticed that his mood changes like a chameleon changes according to the environment!one thing bad bout it is..he can't change his moody mood back to the cheery mood as fast as the latter could change to it's former..so this have really brought lotz of problems for him especially when dealing with someone close or someone he adores and loves very much ie family members,girlfriend etc etc..

Recently he has just made a grave mistake.."one of my worst" quotes the lad..well listening to his story, he was really a shit-hole to be honest with you..he made someone he loves mad and i mean real mad..coz of his rashness..and it seems unrepairable..he has his chances and man did he blew it this time..he pushed his luck (and all those negative emotions) too far and end up being burned..i really wished that i have some ways to fix the problem because i could see that he's really repentant..sigh..

So now this friend of mine is actually like waiting for his death sentence..perhaps he just deserves it..
So this is one of the worst case scenario that can happen when you make the wrong move..so people out there..be calm when making choices..in things you do,words u choose to utter out and also your emotions..

i guess tht is all for this chapter..
till the next chapter..
chaozzzzz..

I regret everything i said..
no way to take it all back..
all i can do now is..
apologize,sincerely and hoping..
hoping that you'lll take me back..

Chapter 15 - Decisions

It's either gonna make me or break me..more often than not, the decisions i made usually break me and up til now, the decisions i made have not reach the life or career threatening so im pretty tensed up by this issue..

PR OR JOURNALISM??

lecturers have advised me to talked to seniors and boy are they ever so wrong..fair enough, the seniors gave me explaination bout the stuff i could do with journalism..and seriously im enticed into going into journalism..the problem is both of these majors are very enticing u see..both have stuff i can really worked on and both have very clear and good job oppurtunities in the future..but one thing im not sure is..in which field i could excel better?of course i would like the glam job where u meet glam people eat glam food drink glam drinks attend glam functions etc etc but life is not always all that glam..another problem is i've suddenly changed into a very passive person, a very not so sociable person..this happening at this time, it sucks u see...

im gonna resigned from my work..yes..imma gonna resign from my work!final decision!hopefully im right...

i guess that's all for this chapter..
till the next one...
chaozzzz!!!!

do not hide from me please..

Chapter 14 - The number 14

It has been an eternity since i last typed something in this blank space..

Have you ever felt the rush of emotions when u finally saw someone you are dying to see?someone although apart from you for only a month plus feels like a year?yea im over exaggerating but then again if you're in my shoes you might feel the same..who knows?Yea, back...my girl is back!!boy am i glad that she is back...she is back for valentines!=D

Alright, i'm trying not to sound cliche, but this Valentines Day is the best ever i've ever spent with anyone..no itz nothing extravagant or anything and this Valentines made me realised something, that Valentines is just like any other day..because being together with her everyday is like Valentines to me..spending all those ups and downs together for the past 8 monnths..i've been blessed with the best possible present ever!

Knowing me,things will never always go smoothly for a long period of time..yea so i was actually a lil bit mix in emotions and feelings,being a over too sensitive to my girlfriend for the past couple of days..for apparently a small tiny prob..it comes to a point where i made a conclusion and i told sher that, " If you ever have a bf in the future, make sure he is not like me...guys like me are like 2nd to abusers" i was pretty frustrated...and no thanks to the bloody msn who keeps dying on me and my very volatile mum,i was pushed to the extreme..but i had a cardboard to help save me from tearing aprt my room coz....i tore the cardboard =)..

Then i got a call from Rachel...she kinda read through me and pinpointed my prob..it seriously helped me..i mean itz like always been under my nose but i've never ever really realised it before up till this moment..and now..im really hoping that for my babystingray sake and myself i will change...i do not wanna end up in the asylum...so,thanks Super Goose!hehe..

i guess that is all for this chapter..
till the next chapter..
chaozzzzz

i will not let you down..
i solemnly swear..

chapter 13 - At What Cost?

She's staying....


but at what cost?


i would rather be miserable than her not being able to do what she wants now..

i would actually seriously do that if it will help her...